My "illness" of the last few years has finally come clean. It has made itself truly known. "It" has deceived me all along. It disguised itself as "the unkindness of others", as "the consequences of substance-abuse", as "a natural chemical imbalance", and simply as "a cruel world"!

I am thankful, now, for it all! I sit here, un-medicated, symptom-free, and with an, admittedly odd, half-smile!
I get it now! I understand! I know how it works!
Of course, I still have to deal with the regrets. I lost some great friends during this time. I made some unfair assumptions. I had unreasonable expectations. I managed to get myself ostracized from a "community" that I love. I failed to make myself understood. In fact, I failed in so many ways, as a Human Being! I need to apologise to so many people......!
So, the half-smile, eh?
Well, it took some 2,600 year-old lessons in psychology, and some long-forgotten knowledge to help me through. I,ve finally removed all the government-sanctioned poison from my system too. That was the hardest part of my recovery. Prescription drugs, and anti-depressants in particular served as a brief tool (a few weeks at best!) to fight my problems, but proved in the end to be worse, in many ways, than the condition they were sent to treat! Over 2 years of this "medication", and now I'm free of it! No more horrific side-effects! No more dependance! Never again!

Back soon...... honest, gov! ;)



PLUR.